do what makes you happy and be done with the rest

So this song has been stuck in my head for a few days. It's one of my favorite songs. It always gets me thinking.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oV0Vi658byo

I choose to travel. To be away from people I love. Familiarity.

All because the chance to experience all the other wonderful things the world has to offer me....

Loneliness consumes me at times. Regardless of if I'm alone or if I'm surrounded by people. It's hard at times knowing that I can easily go home and be back with my friends and family. Everything I already know. Then I remember how miserable I am there and how I ache to travel and see new places, meet new people.

Now, when it comes to a relationship...finding that "special someone"...that's always hard for me. At times I feel like I have so much I want to do. Traveling and experiencing, how can I possibly put myself in a relationship and expect that person to understand my passion. Then at other times I think, what if I could just find somebody who shares my passion. A person to go with me and experience the world with.

My first road trip I knew I needed to be by myself. I had so much of my past that was weighing me down and that trip taught me so much about who I am. I learned to let go of things I can't change and be okay with that. I learned how independent I am. I do so many things by myself and I am completely content with that. I know numerous people who won't even go to a restaurant alone. When I tell people about my road trip one of the first questions a lot of people ask is "Who did you go with?" I tell them I went by myself. "What, weren't you scared? Didn't you get lonely?". I did get lonely but I honestly can't tell you a time where I was truly scared. I mean one night sleeping in my car I kept hearing people walk by my car and all I could think was it was a cop that was going to tell me to leave...but I wasn't scared.

Now, I recently was talking with a new friend and they said to me "What if you find someone that makes you want to stay where you are?" At first I couldn't think of an answer. I was slightly thrown off guard. I honestly haven't thought much about that. After a few minutes of awkwardly laughing and saying I don't know.....I said, I hope that doesn't happen because I would want someone who can't stand to stay in one place either. Someone else who feels like there is so much to see in the world. How can I possibly stay in one place right now? There is so much living left to do. I can't settle yet. I mean, yes, I want to find someone who makes me want to be with them and share life with them. But I don't want it to be someone who takes away my longing to travel because we all know that is what I am meant to be doing right now.....

And as all this is written I think a small part of my traveling does have to do with hopes of finding some amazing guy to sweep my off my feet. Someone to tell me to "stick around"....

So with all this being said...I need my friends to refer me back to this post if I start talking about settling down with a guy anytime soon and not traveling.....haha ;)