Why does it happen?

Yes I am home and I am alone
And I lay here weeping
Weeping for those without a home
For those without a love
For those with nothing to hold on to
I weep because some give up
if we were just one second sooner
But some give up even in that second
I weep for those with tragedies
Tragedies that are burned into their minds
Burned so deep they can't sleep at night
That overwhelming pain that cant be removed
Waking up sweating unable to breathe
That same damn nightmare that occurs again and again
Yet they can't tell you about it
They can't voice that sorrow
That sorrow that is felt to the depths of their soul
It's unspeakable, unrepeatable, unimaginable
Have you ever felt something the deep
It cuts it's way smoothly through your chest
Deep deep inside so you can't escape it
How can these events occur to those so young
To those who haven't lived their lives yet
But they have felt more than some will feel forever
How does a boy so young find it in himself
Find it in himself to take his last breath
Why do we choose to allow this to continue

Just don't know you.

I want to mold you, hold you, fold into you
I want to grow old with you
I want to experience and roam the streets with you
I want to change and rearrange with you
I want to be better with you
I want to play you and explore you
I want to live life with you
I want to learn from you
I want to teach you and reach you
I want to roam the depths of your mind
I want to touch the inside of your soul
I want to tell you how I feel when I feel
Even when I can’t tell you how I feel
I want to be your sunrise
I want to make your life brighter every day
I want to become part of you
I want to be myself with you
I want to be honest and true with you
I want to love with you
I want to do all of this with you
But I just don’t know you.
So what I want is this,
I want to meet you. 
I want to greet you and complete you.

be who you are.

i am moving.
moving in this world
to the beat of my heart.
while you,
you move to the others beat.
you move to make others see,
what you can't see,
because you are blinded.
you are blinded by the lies they cast,
the shadows they create,
the impossible pictures that they paint.
you, you are stuck
in this place where you can't create.
you are a soldier ant.
moving when they say,
doing what they do.
but why,
do this for you.
do this because you are you.
because you are here to be something more.
because someone loves you more than you know.
what you love is what you need.
they won't keep you happy.
it's all a game, a tiring, endless,
mindless, kindergarten game.
a game where you lose.
you empty the bottle and you lose.
you fill up those veins and you lose.
you lay by that toilet and you lose.
that razor blade falls to the floor and you lose.
they win.
they watch you suffer and they move on.
their prey is waiting while they load up the gun.
while you sit alone in your room.
you sit alone and you wonder what went wrong.
how did you end up here.
that butterfly flew by and you couldn't see.
the beauty didn't move you like before.
you're scared but don't you hold your breath.
breathe deep and move on.
you are strong and vibrant.
that rainbow in that painting can be you.
show them who are you.
be what you dream.
don't settle for the the failure.
rise up and give it one more go.
because you, you  are beautiful.
you are magnificent, like that first shooting star.
you are unique in so many ways.
so put down that bottle,
put down that needle,
put down the blade
put it down and look in the mirror.
see who you are.
because who you are is gorgeous.
so get up and go,
go move, move in this world,
move in this world to your own beat.

change gon' come

I am free,
I am vibrant,
I am flying,
Through this unknown world
Full of sirens.
The air is full, it's clouded, it's rude,
I break out to the top, a new mood.
Pure, refreshing, delightful.
My heart is heavy but not for long,
my shadow cast spells where I don't belong.
I feel a yearning, an aching, a call,
Do I answer and risk the chance to fall.
I continue to move so fluidly so
It's in my bones, my skin, my soul,
I feel it lift and take me on this journey of my own
Powerful, triumphantly, I do this alone
I realize that I am who I am, even when I'm not me
It's confusing and charming and daring
I withstand the test while always caring.
I share this feeling that I want the world to know
All the beautiful people who have a doubt in their mind
The judging and torment, too many so blind,
A second has passed and a change has been made

(whew, I feel like a new person after writing this. I love it.)  :)

This is how I feel. Exactly.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JDrB7KrbnMc