make me feel it's for real....tell me what you know

Everyone says "everything happens for a reason" and I believe this, I really do. I know sometimes the reason isn't apparent at the moment it happens but looking back on things I know there is a reason for everything. I think ;) I am having a hard time right now finding a job. I have applied to numerous places and have yet to have anything promising. I rethink that I quit the Melting Pot sometimes but then I just think of how unhappy I would be and how it was NOT what I wanted. Money is such a freaking issue and it frustrates me. My family has been helping me enormously and to them, I am forever grateful. I know everything is going to fall into place soon but the wait is keeping me on my toes quite a bit. I am so lucky to have a family that supports me and all my crazy, spur of the moment, mindless decisions. I know if I wanted to pick up now and travel the US they would support me, with unlimited amounts of worry, but if it's what I wanted I know they would support me. Not a whole lot of people can say that and I truly know how lucky I am and how special my family is. I can't believe I have only been in Raleigh for....4months?.....and I already want to go see somewhere new and different. I really think I am meant to travel. I wish I could just pack up some clothes, my journal, soap, and my books and get in my car and drive. I wouldn't mind sleeping in my car...although I'm sure lots of people have some words to preach on that. hehe. I wonder if there is some kind of traveling job I could take with me....hmmmmmm.....